*warning: this gonna be a long long post. stop reading if you dont feel wanna read it*

let's start with my second year semester 2.

wida' with my favourite person. meet a new person, new environment. but with the same murobbi from my second year semester one. I HATE HER *actually i kinda like her*

i did a BIG BIG BIG trouble during this year. i did something that i should not do. T^T 

'rasa bersalah tu takkan pernah hilang' this is what keeps me stronger in this path. i feel so wronged, imbecile and WHAT THE HELL DID you do fyha? i cries day and night (~more likely a week) never thought the power of dua will become true. 

that is not even one mistake that i did in a year but more than one might be twice, triple or quadrant! i guess this will be one of the mistakes that i will remember until the end of my breathe. 2017 is one of my rebellious state, the moment where i dont even listen to any advice. 

i wida' online with them. not in a good state. i tried to let it go. but i cant, i TRIED, i FAILED. 

"sometimes the only reason why you won't let go of what's making you sad is because it was the only thing that made you happy"

~annonymous~

i wish my memories with JK, UA, hizbullah can let go as free as we kentut lepas angin (i tried to make a joke. please laugh) i hate the feelings where i cant talk freely like we all used to do. it's hard when someone that we used to be close (kau pasti kau rapat?) dont even talk with each other, avoid with each other and act like we dont know each other. okay aku lupa, semua orang ada tanggungjawab masing-masing ._.

wait.. i am so tired to write anything.  *anyway lets continue*

once again i meet a new surrounding, new murobbi, new usrahmate, new khatibahmate, first time i stay RI (3rd year semester 1). this new surrounding slightly change myself from someone who is clingy, from someone who is cengeng. I become someone that's more stronger than before. never thought this will change me. I meant it. (okay lets stop)

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO STILL STAY WITH ME NO MATTER HOW BAD I AM. I APPRECIATE IT. xoxo!

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